Wednesday, May 9, 2012

a deep breath

I am not one to relax.... ever! My breathing is always fast, my shoulders are always hunched over, i always feel tense.


After looking over my eating habits, i wondered what else in my life could use a little change. I have been trying to make a conscious effort to sit up straight. Although it would be nice if i could go back to birth and be taught to sit up straight right from the start. But maybe some chiro appointments and massages may help! It really does make a difference when you sit taller. You feel proud... and my neck doesn't hurt quite as bad.


I've also been trying to take deep breaths every now and then ~ especially when i go to sleep. It's helping me to relax ~ at least a little. I don't feel quite as tense and my day seems to go better. It is very calming. I even did some yoga the other morning (i'll have to work on the breathing through my nose part).


I'm hoping that both of these things, along with exercise and eating healthy, will help me live the balanced lifestyle i've been looking for. But most importantly, is giving it all to God. Letting go and letting Him have control of me.

Monday, May 7, 2012

i failed

i failed... we were out all day saturday and by the time we got home, my daughter was putting up a fight with her last nap and i was exhausted (only got 4 hours of sleep, 2 hours asleep.. awake for 4... 2 hours asleep). And by the time dinner came around, i could make myself prepare dinner for an hour. So we ate something out of the freezer... shame on me. I know, i'm awful!

now today is hubby's birthday and i felt bad that we're not exchanging gifts (we'd rather spoil our baby girl) so i told him we could go out to eat if he wanted to. Maybe i can find something healthy at Outback??!

even though it only lasted a few days, i have learned so much. I CAN live without sweets, i NEED my carbs, and i HATE drinking a gallon of water.

i have made a list of healthy things to eat for all 3 meals and snacks. I will stick with this healthy eating and limit the amount of unhealthy things that go in my body. I'll share what some of those foods are in another blog.

oh... hubby and i have found a new adventure (hopefully we finish it this time!). We want to start running. We're going to do the couch to 5k program in hopes of running a race at the end of Summer (i'm scared to death).

so tonight we're off to celebrate hubby's birthday with some dinner and new running shoes for us both!

Friday, May 4, 2012

Day 3

I would have slept sooooo good last night... if it weren't for the enormous roar of the thunder. I felt like i was on a cloud at 9:00pm and could easily drift off to sleep. This was amazing to me because i do not fall asleep easily (a lot of people on this program said they started sleeping better). Well, then the thunder woke me up within 5 minutes. And it continued to do so for the next 4 hours! Not only that, but i am a paranoid mama and all these thoughts kept going around in my head. What if a tree fell on the house, what if i can't get to my daughter in the next room, what if lightning struck the air conditioner and started a fire?!!! Of course my baby girl slept through all of this... 10 straight hours! Hubby told me in the morning he was having the same thoughts. Love him!


Today is Day 3. The cravings are a little less today. I still want my bagel, but i definitely don't feel the need for any sweets. Still dreading the green shot this afternoon. They say you can buy capsules and put the powder in there but i haven't had time to go get them.


I had oatmeal, blueberries and yogurt for breakfast. I'm going to have leftovers from last night's dinner for lunch (rice and beans with guacamole and corn on a corn tortilla), and dinner is nori rolls... not sure i'll like them but i'm going to try. Basically sushi only without any fish... beans are used instead. Yes, i have to MAKE these. Hmmmm....  oh and a snack will be either an apple with peanut butter or yogurt with lots of mixed berries!


So far i've learned that i CAN eat healthy, i DO NOT need sweets all the time, and i am LOVING some of the meals/snacks. It definitely takes time to prepare all these meals. It takes organization (which i love). Yes, my initial shopping trip was expensive. But i have some things that will last me a long time (amino acids, coconut oil, balsamic vinegar). And if you think of all the snacks i can get out of all my fruits and veggies, it's way cheaper than eating fast food all the time.


I'm already figuring out what i like and don't like. And i already have an idea of what i'll be eating after this is over.


Oh and i LOST 3 POUNDS IN 2 DAYS!! Amazing since i'm drinking 100 oz of water a day - ugh.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Day 2

I must have a bagel!! Someone find me a bagel with lots of warm melted butter... NOW!!

This is a rough day. I really thought i'd be missing my sweets but it's the carbs i want. I am feeling dizzy, drained, and still hungry. And i'm pretty much complaining all day long... love you hubby!

But i did manage to do a load of laundry, vacuum the downstairs, and swiffer the whole first floor (really wish i had some carpet). Of course all of this while working and taking care of my baby girl.

Breakfast ~ Oatmeal with blueberries and 1/2 cup of organic plain yogurt (sweetened with 1 tsp agave nectar)

Lunch ~ Greek salad with chicken

Snack ~ Yogurt again with strawberries, blueberries, and raspberries - i could eat this every single day!

Dinner ~ Salsa, guacamole, and a rice and bean filled corn tortilla

Then i get to eat a bagel, right?!

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Day 1

Today is the beginning for me. The day i've been waiting for, for years. I really hope this is the start of healthy eating for my family. I keep thinking about my baby girl. Her pure, innocent face. I want her to grow up enjoying fruits and vegetables and not needing dessert after every meal. I want her to feel good about the foods she's eating and not dragging because of unhealthy food choices.

Breakfast~ 2 eggs, kale, and 2 pieces of whole grain toast... not going to lie - toast without butter tastes like cardboard!

Lunch ~ Salad with homemade dressing and some cashews. It was pretty good. I had to buy a pretty plate to eat it on though. Salads have never been a favorite of mine, unless it's at a restaurant and probably full of 1,000 calories!

Shot of nasty green stuff ~ What i imagine very very salty grass would taste like - yuck! Even though i plugged my nose, it felt like a pound of salt going down my throat. I think tomorrow i will use cold water because room temp water was gross. Not sure how i'll stomach this one for 21 days!

I'm looking forward to salmon for dinner. Not going to lie, i've been pretty hungry. My meals usually consist of a lot of carbs because that's what i can throw in my mouth the fastest with 4 kids running around. I know it will take my body a few days to adjust to that.

20 1/2 more days to go!